Such a heavy heart

I don't even know that I could utter these words out loud, but I believe my worst fear just occurred. Daddy was home with Jayen and Brilyn while I took Dalan to a friends house to play. I was taking a longer time than anticipated because I was talking. I figured daddy was calling to tell me to get home so I didn't answer. (SHHHHH Don't tell him!) But when he called back a second time, I knew something was wrong. I wasn't prepared for what he was about to say, but in the back of my mind I already knew it. Jayen just had a seizure. I'm so crushed. I'm so pissed. I'm so upset for Jayen and all of our family. Did we really just go through everything this past month only for these damn things to return? What the hell just happened? Why the hell did this just happen? Not even sure what to do or where to go from here.